life in tension
So, yes I still have a blog and after much soul searching (well about 30sec) I thought I was very overdue for a new post.
Life is in a turbulent holding pattern. I’m ready for change, but I don’t see anything changing around the corner. There is much in my head and on my heart, but I’m unsure what to do with it all and where to turn and what to change…So I sit in turbulance- seatbelt still fastened and wait for this to pass.
A Mashup of the Top 25 Hits of 2008, according to Billboard.
Download the audio at djearworm.com
Tracklist:
Flo Rida Featuring T-Pain – Low
Leona Lewis – Bleeding Love
Alicia Keys – No One
Lil Wayne Featuring Static Major – Lollipop
Timbaland Featuring OneRepublic – Apologize
Jordin Sparks Duet With Chris Brown – No Air
Sara Bareilles – Love Song
Usher Featuring Young Jeezy – Love in This Club
Chris Brown – With You
Chris Brown – Forever
Ray J & Yung Berg – Sexy Can I
Rihanna – Take a Bow
Coldplay – Viva La Vida
Katy Perry – I Kissed a Girl
T.I. – Whatever You Like
Rihanna – Disturbia
Rihanna – Don’t Stop the Music
Natasha Bedingfield – Pocketful of Sunshine
Chris Brown Featuring T-Pain – Kiss Kiss
Ne-Yo – Closer
Colbie Caillat – Bubbly
Mariah Carey – Touch My Body
Madonna Featuring Justin Timberlake – 4 Minutes
Pink – So What
Finger Eleven – Paralyze
Welcome to the day late version of something I hope becomes a weekly occurrence- my hope to give you a taste of some good music, with hopefully a strong, creative or just fun visual to accompany the sweet melodies.
Monday December 1, 2008
Laura Marling- New Romantic
The hauntingly simple folksy voice of Laura Marling coupled with the clean simplicity of the video make for a moving combination of shadows and silhouettes; that are both playful and true.
Welcome to the day late version of something I hope becomes a weekly occurrence- my hope to give you a taste of some good music, with hopefully a strong, creative or just fun visual to accompany the sweet melodies.
Monday December 1, 2008
Laura Marling- New Romantic
The hauntingly simple folksy voice of Laura Marling coupled with the clean simplicity of the video make for a moving combination of shadows and silhouettes; that are both playful and true.
i voted…you should too aside from who you vote for this is a pretty fine piece to watch—motion and what not, you can say it’s propaganda if you want…i just think it’s well done.
i have officially had the hardest time getting back into the swing of working and having a “normal” schedule- I think there is part of me that craves the routine that I love, but in the same about I love feeling free and spontaneous- welcome to the conflict that is my inner self.
I feel trained by the product of too many years of school to be conditioned that fall is the time to start over, it’s almost a fresher start that new years or a birthday…however i don’t feel that freshness of start-ness I’m can’t switch into “normal” mount hermon life with the ease that i want or would hope to achieve.
so here i sit in my office on my “lunch” break and just kinda want to rest my head on my desk take a deep breath, and maybe, well maybe take a nap….hahahaha
i need to get more creative….ok? yeah and this blog doesn’t hold me accountable to that need at all. i miss the university enviornment where creativity was encouraged and you could find around every corner and conversation….bah!
oh and I lost my keys
last night i lost my cell phone
found the phone have no idea where the keys are
summer is slipping quickly through my finger tips like sand, that makes it sound so romantic when really i feel like i’m coming out of a drug induced state where i’m left wondering, what the hell happened in the past three months.
1) our house was shared with summer staff….the record was 55 in one night
2) adventures were had in full force, but still too few for my liking
3) i prayed a lot- a lot about this summer was new, unknown and frankly it still is
I’m sad to see you leave Summer, but you’ll be back- different with new challenges and wonderfulness i’m happy we became friends, stay in touch, ok?
This book Gift from the Sea by Anne Morrow Lindbergh- is pretty much rocking my world in more ways than one…I just finished a chapter and I want to pretty much write the whole thing down and have you read it for yourself. It’s about fear, it’s about fear in relationships and loving well, and doing relationships well. People mean so much to me and my desire is to love them well- but so often I’m caught in the “what ifs?” and worry of this or that. Anne says we need none of that…
Relationship is not strangled by claims. Intimacy is tempered by lightness of touch. We have moved through our day like dancers, not needing to touch more lightly because we were instinctively moving to the same rhythm. ( ahh such a beautiful picture)
A good relationship has a pattern like a dance and it built on some of the same rules. That partners do not need to hold on tightly, because they move confidently in the same pattern, intricate but gay and swift and free…To touch heavily would be to arrest the pattern freeze the movement, to check the endlessly changing beauty of it’s unfolding. There is no place for the possesive clutch, the clinging arm, the heavy hand; only the barest touch in passing.
One cannot dance well unless one is completely in time with the music, not leaning back into the last step or pressing forward to the next one, but poised directly on the present step as it comes.
He who bends to himslef a joy, doth the winged life destroy; But he who kisses joy as it flies Lives in Eternity’s sunrise. – BLake
The dancers who are perfectly in time never destroy the “winged life” in each other or in themselves….Why is this so difficult? What makes us hesitate and stumble? It is fear, I think, that makes one cling nostalgically to the last moment or clutch greedily toward the next. Fear destroys “the winged life.” But how to exorcise it? It can only be exorcised by its opposite, love. When the heart is flooded with love there is room in it left for fear, for doubt, for hesitation…When each partner loves so completely that he has forgotten to ask himself whether or not he is loved in return….
That’s the love I want to have for people, and to have- there is so much more! So don’t live in fear! live in love…my idealistic ways I know but I believe them to be true!
I’m now halfway through summer, it’s official the halfway mark has blown past and there wasn’t even time to stop and comprehend what that means. Thoughts: I love and hate summer, it owns you and it takes everything in you to keep it from owning you, to still have some “peace” about who you are in the midst of it all. I hate it, but love it- because while it owns me there is a sweetness found in it. I need to remember to cling to that sweetness more, found in the people and in everything that makes a summer here legendary. I guess the AM speaker said this, “A great man is one that can transition well.” I royally suck at transition- it’s probably one of the things that I need to seriously re-frame in my life….I’m thinking more about this because I think one of the hardest things about this summer is that it has been a perpetual transition (roommates, job, friends, relationships,family) you name it it’s probably changed in my life…I long for consistency and normalcy but I know it’s never going to come, this “new normal” will always be changing- it’s my job to now stop freaking out and see how Christ is in fact there, he’s along for all of it: My freak outs, doubt, over analyzing and trying to understand when I should just let go. I shake my fist at it all and at the same moment sit and know that all is well-
currently listening too- and liking
BEAUTIFUL MESS – JASON MRAZ
You’ve got the best of both worlds
You’re the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you’re needy,
Humble but you’re greedy
And based on your body language,
And shouted cursive I’ve been reading
Your style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is
And what a beautiful mess this is
It’s like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don’t mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
‘Cause here we are, here we are
Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they’re quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There’s no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I’m paraphrasing this relationship we’re staging
And what a beautiful mess this is
It’s like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I’ve heard
But it’s nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, Here we are
Here we are [x7]
We’re still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It’s like taking a guess when the only answer is yes
Through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We’ll fly like birds, out of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that’s no concern when we’re wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it’s nice today, oh the wait was so worth it.
